| I'm higher than I ever have been on this blog. I'm like 106 pounds. One. Hundred. And. Sick. Pounds. Of. Fat. *gags* I'm really pissed. I have probably eaten like 4000 calories a day. I have cheer tryouts in two weeks and I want to be 95. Possible? I think so. I figure if I cut my intake to 300 or less, and exercise an hour per day, it's possible. My system isn't used to hunger like it used to be. You always lose the most amount of weight within the first few weeks. I really have to do this. For cheerleading, for control, for myself. Any tips? I haven't been on forever. I really need some motivation besides my fatass self. :P Please help! |
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| Thanks for understanding. :] I still haven't decided but at the moment I'm still LiveJournal, although I miss Xanga. I'm fasting at the moment- 24 hours done, and probably going until lunch tomorrow- hopefully! Yeah...that's it. |
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| I have messed up over and over. I just can't seem to gain control. I'm on a new sight on LiveJournal which isn't nearly as amazing as Xanga. I'd come back- but I want to start over. Some people on here are worth coming back here. Others, are repetitive and boring. I am starting the ABC diet tomorrow on some challenge, and I am fasting probably until Thursday. I think I have the strength. Actually- no. I have the strength. I wanted to keep you updated. I might come back. I might not. If anyone is interested in staying in contact with me. Comment me! I will be in control. <33
Nikky |
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| I didn't update yesterday because I was 1) exhausted and 2) I just binged and was upset with myself. Now, when I came home I had a small feeling of binge behavior coming on. I contemplated it and decided to eat. Stupid decision. I had this same feeling after school today but today I was smart and knew I didn't want to eat. I started a fast at 10 this morning. I'm pretty sure I can do it. I will go brush my teeth in a minute to make me less hungry, plus I ate a ton during a party this morning. Not much else. Tomorrow is Love Day. Yay? I wish I had someone to celebrate it with. :-/ But I guess maybe I don't, because then hopefully I can continue my fast. I started one last night, but I forgot that we had a party this morning. I skipped lunch also and I'm still super full. I wanted to puke everything up [[I ate a ton]] but school isn't the best place to do it for the first time. Now I'm talking to my dad. Grr. It's so boring... Later. |
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| Minor binge- well major minor. Food Intake:
B- vitamin [[0]]
L- straberries [[20]]
SS- cookie [[100]]
B- 2 ice cream [[200]] fruit snacks [[100]] chex mix [[100]]
D- pizza [[200]]
=720 Ickk. I was pretty mad at myself after that but I had cheer for an hour and half or something. Plus I have my exercise tonight- which I was too exhausted to do last night. So at nine, I'll do my exercise, done with my homework or not. I finished the homework due tomorrow so I'm set with that but I should work on my PoePouri more. Weights of The Day:
6:30 am- 97.2 lbs BF% 24.2
3:10 pm- 97.4 lbs BF% 24.2
5:00 pm- 97.0 lbs BF% 24.5 The last one was right after my binge. Which is weird but good I guess. I just need to stop binging. Tomorrow I won't be home until like 800 pm so I'm good. [[Leaving at 700 in the morning]] I'll have no breakfast, about 100 calories at lunch, 100 at scioly and 100 at cheer hopefully. We have an extra long practice tomorrow for our competition on Monday. We need to perfect the performance. [[Which sucks at the moment!]] So, yeah. I'm glad I stayed under 1000 for my daily intake and stayed under 500 with my binge. If I had only one ice cream rather than the binge, I would have stayed under 500. Grr. Whatever. I got away with eating nothing at lunch- I was just hungry at math so I ate my strawberries. Everything except for the pizza is precise. Everything is else is written on the label or looked up on the internet. [[i.e. strawberries]] I should get to work on my homework-ick- and finish my poe packet. Not much else. Laterr. |
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